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HELLO♥
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i miss you.
i miss your smile.
and i still shed a tear every once in a while.
and even though its different now.
youre still here somehow.
my heart wont let you go.
and i need you to know.
i miss you.


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Vengeance Is Served♥

KELVIN VALENTINO VICTOR. :D
nineteen .
soccer.
playing the guitar.
entertaining people.
14021992.

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LOVES♥

her.
my friends.
myself.


DESIRES♥

her.
her.
her.


SPOKEN TEARS♥





LINKS♥

Chandini
Dawn:P
DIANA ! :D
GEn
Hui wen
Jerome
Ralph
Robyn gwee!!
Syndris
someone
someone
someone
someone
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someone
someone
someone


MY PAST♥

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♥Saturday, August 30, 2008
@ 1:09 PM

hey all....i just wana tell every1 sorry for my behaviour for the past few weeks......i just talked to my bro today....and well.....without me knowing there are people who look up to me and need my help....and if i keep thinkin bout sha and my past....then how can i expect to help others....god helps those who helps themselves....to help others around me...i gotta help my self.....i was so into my problems and my life......i forgot all about the people around me......how i used to bring laughter and joy into their lives...how i really used to make them happy and myself.....yes i put on a mask to these things....but maybe this mask will stick onto me.....my friends out there.....i am really sorry for behaving how i was....because of thinkin bout myself too much....i forgot of those people who really cared for me....also those people i used to talk to and help.....guess i kinda avoided everyone....and forgot about these people who really made a difference in my life.....firstly it ould be dennis...i kept thinkin he was mad at me and clouded my mind with all sorts of idiotic things.....next person would be diana.....hey diana if your reading this....i am really sorry if i ignored you inanyway.....i guess i just dont wana let go of my past sometimes......guess i must learn to let go.....i just wana tell everyone im sorrie......bye bye to the emotional and depressed me.....say hello to the old valentino:DDD....smiley smiley...haha.....havent laughed for a long tyme...and it feels good......hopefully i dont let tis cloud my mind again.....

And god...i have not lost faith in you and i will never again try too......your the only one i need at my happy times and at my worst times....please walk beside me and never let me ever think you left me astray


& to feel yours on mine again♥



♥Friday, August 29, 2008
@ 9:43 PM

I guess evey1 just d0nt care b0ut me anym0re.....guess they alrdy l0st h0pe......t0day when really needed t0 t0k t0 s0me1......n0 freakin pers0n replied!!!!!!!! all just dn care!!!!! fakerz!!!!! first sha left me....nw every1 single pers0n!!!!! why me!!!! why the fuck is all this happenin 2 me!!!!1 what r0ng did i d0 t0 any 0f u ppl!!!!! just g0!!!!! I dn need any1!!!!!! stop fakin y0u ppl care!!!! Im sick 0f cryin and wastin my tears!!!! i need n01 already!!!! just stop hurtin me alrdy.....l0st sharmini...then the ppl arnd me...nw m l0sin myself.....wh0 am i nw...better yet...wat m i nw....i d0n0.....sha....y did u make me in2 this.....im l0sin it!!!!!



I thought i had you cl0se t0 me.....

But n0w u are straying away fr0m me......

I am l0sing myself tryin t0 get y0u back....


& to feel yours on mine again♥



♥Thursday, August 21, 2008
@ 4:57 PM

I AM FINALLY ALONE IN THIIS WORLD OF MINE!!!!

NOW I OFFICIALY HAVE NO ONE TO RELY ON OR SEEK HELP!!!!

I NEED SOME ONE TOO TALK TOO




I miss the times

I thought you were mine


& to feel yours on mine again♥



♥Sunday, August 17, 2008
@ 3:33 PM

Well.....has been ages since i wrote a post...well this wan gona be a long one anyway...well GCP is over.....and its like my class got more bonded and guys who were in my class for 4 years finally toked....omg....well.....life is really great though....it was going real great but now....its just getting worse...i think its the o lvl stress and oso alot of other things....for a few days now thinking bout sharmini alot.....its juts so irritating!!!!....WHY THE FUCK DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!!!!....DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING DEPRESSED I M NOW!!!! damn!!!! that song....seize the day.......memories of her...and now i seein her also....am i hallucinating.!!!!er!!!!i just hate it!!!



EVERYTHIN IS GOIN AGAINST ME!!!.....everytime i get angry....it willl turn to sadness den depression den back to the state i was before.....remembering bout her.....this whole year...i tried not to get angry by joking around more.....telling jokes making jokes bout people.....so that i wan be angry or sad...mainly to get me from getting angry...but its not working!!!! today one idiot keepin askin me if i out with a girll....i keep sayin no and she sayin i lyin......and i think dennis is angry with me cause i lied......dennis really helped me alot.....from being a satanist to coming back to church...his advice helped me and guided me.....and nw...i tink hes angry with me cause i lied...i m sorrie.....and i just ant take it anymore.....the memories are back...i cant throw it away!!!! GOD WAT IS HAPPENING!!!!!.......i came back to church to get rid of those fuckers in my life....to change...but i find more people here.....more people gossipin bout me thinkin i dun know....WELL FYI!!!!! I KNOW THAT YOU ASSHOLES ARE TALKIN BEHIND MY BACK IN CHURCH!!!!.....they are makin me more pissed....and i just keep thinkin bout sharmini....just a few mins ago it happen......STOP TALKIN BEHIND MY BACK!!!! if u not happy with me or dont like me say it to my fuckin faCE!!!!



I just have no1 again......i have so many people around me but i just feel dam lonely....didnt have these much people with me before.....i didnt felt lonely....but now even ith this much people i just feeling dam lonely.......after sha i just needed god only....i still need him.....but just these people aint makin life easier for me....i just cant take it!!!!! WHY IS EVERYTHING WRONG HAPPENING WITH ONLY ME!!!!!! BEin a satanist wasnt the biggest mistake....now im gettin my punishment.....i just dont need any1 anymore......no need church no need friends!!!! just leave me fucking alone!!! iwana b alone now!!!!!! i don need any1!!!!! just piss off!!!! get off my life!!!! wana talk bad bout me talk to my freaking face!!!! dn u dare tok behind my back.....i just dn find the need to even live nowadays.....life is just screwin me up!!!!i taken so much of this gossip and so much of this crap....y shld i act anymore.....y shld i pose myself to b happy anymore....y shld i b a joker anymore....y shld i show to people im happy and lifes ok anymore.....for wat shit!!!!.....i not gona show m happy...and just for their sake and mine....let this drama go on......NOT ANYMORE!!! I AM SICK OF ACTING!!!! i just gona do what i wangt alreayd...don need those fakers who act as if they care!!!!!!!!!! people also wana call me a chauvanist....let it be!!!!!i don care!!!!! I sick of acting that everything is really alright and life is really happy!!!!!! NO MORE!!!!!!!!!


Born as a boy
Live as a man
Die as a legend


& to feel yours on mine again♥